i love it
when you hold my hand
and walk besides me
saying nothing
making me smile

i love it
when you have your arm around me
and walk besides me
talking nonsense
making me laugh

i love it
when you hug me unaware
and hold me there
whispering kisses
melting me with your warmth

i love it
when you climb in the bed
and pat me to sleep
humming a lullaby
making me dream

i changed
to change you
and with the series of changes
i forgot
what i started as
cuz' now
i'm someone new
but you still are
what you were
and i like it that way
cuz' you are
still you

been lazy been happy
been there and did lots
been grumpy been bumpy
been there and answered the whys and whats

you're a blessing
the best gift on earth
you're a part of me
i'm gonna give you birth

i wonder if you'd be a l'll girlie
whose pigtails i'd love to tie
i wonder if you'd be a l'll guy
whose paper planes i'd love to fly

why did i laugh for no reason last night?
why were the birds chirping tonight?
why do i not sleep to be able to wake up soon?
why isn't it strange and feels like boon?

as i walked into nowhere
thinking about nothing
and smiling for no reason
i looked up at the sky
with no colors today
i felt new
even if it is
just another day

they whisper
they hug
they caress each other
they look more than happy
wearing their favorite color

they smile at the sun
dance with the wind
they move as one
they let the rain drops kiss them
and have the wildest of fun

guess who tiptoed
to my roof last night?
it was the rain
who didn't want to wake me up
who couldn't help but do
a little tap dance there
thinking that it wasn't being heard
and i lay in my bed
smiling to the tip-tap it did
smelling the freshness of it
making it think
that it isn't being heard

i walked
and then i ran down
the memory lane
i brushed past
some of my favorite moments
sane and insane

i smelt
some delicious food
that i now crave for
i remembered
those who cooked it
those i somewhat cared for

i flipped through
the numerous books
that i spent half of my salary on
i wondered
which shelf of which house
they're sleeping on

i thought about
the blue cell phone
the first one that i bought
the one who i lost
owing to my carelessness
and had me distraught

i met those
special people
who changed my life
they were strangers
who taught me how to handle
the edge of a knife

i felt dad's hugs
and grandpa
my ultimate pamperer
i wished
i could stay back here in time
for some more time, if not forever

a chirp here and a chirp there
i inhale these sounds
as i wake up smelling the misty air

and oh how good that makes me feel
i wanna touch the fluffy leaves
i wanna lick the clouds as the sky i peel

and with the birdies when i sing along
to wake up the asleep
i drift away to the world of sleep, listening to my own song

like a drop in the ocean is one but is lost
like the air we breathe is a lot but is lost
like a blade of the grass stands out but is lost
i am, different than the swarm, standing out, but is lost

what?
nothing.
say it!
why?
what why?
why why.
oh my!
my my!
chuck it!
chuck why?
then say it.
say what?
whatever.
whatever.

what was that? a chit-chat. what else? maybe, i've gone crazy!

i stretch my legs
and wiggle my toes
then make a face
at my usual pose
i think harder
and twist my nose
i know it's a result of
a laziness overdose

ahem! it was my b'day yesterday and it was fun! :D here are the highlights:

• the big big keyboard (synthesizer) that Nitin gifted me
• the b'day cake with Nitin's calligraphy on it
• my cake-painted face
• Nitin's cake-painted face :D
  

enjoy the pics :D

i look at the fog outside
i know it ain't rosy
but i feel it's cozy

maybe it's a mystery
cuz' it shows some
and hides some

maybe it's so happy
that it won't let us see anything
but itself

maybe it's so sad
that it mourns
under the white covers

maybe it's emotionless
as it lays still
colorless

when you continue the song
that i started a few minutes ago
when you know what i wanna say
but you pretend that you don't know
when you let me sleep in the morn
and make me the bed tea
when you know that i haven't cooked well
but you eat it like it's yummy
when you give me a teddy bear hug
and catch me unaware with a kiss
i love you a zillion times more than always
i realize that you are synonymous with bliss

questions, assumptions, doubts, and reasons
like the changing seasons
we are
and will be

grudges, enmity, bitterness, and lies
like the changing skies
we are
and will be

think and ponder, relationships yonder
like storm and thunder
we are
and will be